I am not skilled to understand
What God has willed, what God has planned
I only know at His right hand
Stands One who is my Savior
I take Him at his word and deed
Christ died to save me this I read
And in my heart I find a need
For Him to be my Savior
That He would leave His place on high
And come for sinful man to die
You count it strange, but once did I
Before I knew my Savior
My Savior loves, my Savior lives
My Savior's always there for me
My God He was, my God He is
My God He's always gonna be
Yes, living, dying; let me bring
My strength, my solace from this spring
That He who lives to be my King
Once died to be my Savior
That He would leave his place on High
And come for sinful men to die
You count it strange so once that I
Before I knew my Savior
My Savior loves, My Savior lives
My Savior's always there for me
My God He was, My God He is, My God He's always gonna be
My Savior lives, My Savior loves
My Savior lives, My Savior loves
Aaron Shust
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
Wrapping up the experience at Lakeside...
First of all, I want to say the biggest THANK YOU to all the little ones in Lakeside Before and After School Day Care!! Thank you to all the teachers as well! These past two months had been awesome and I really considered myself very blessed to know such a place. Yes, we met the President today. Haha, the kids were super excited about it, many of them were meeting him for the first time. For me, it's just that one last day with them, so just thought of accompanying them on this trip. Yeah, it's amazing. Saying goodbye was a little difficult. I know that many of them are sad to see jeanna and myself leave. I just want to praise God for using me to be a blessing, to impart something in the kids life. I know that they will grow up to be great men and women of God. Praise God for all the teachers and Hwee Chin as well. Their unconditonal love, time and effort for the kids are fantastic! Even auntie lina derserved to be priase as well! (Man, I'm going to miss her food).
Being in Lakeside for the past two months had taught me to treasure life more. To lean on God's strength. Men's strength are too little to make an impact. The children there deserve so much more and sometimes I feel like there's nothing I can offer. Nothing that I can do to take away their pain, nothing that I can do to change their lives. Only God can. All I can do is to show them love and joy everytime I'm there. Father, protect them, watch over them and bless them. Bless the teachers too for they too are holding on to you. Only you can change them God. Gosh, I so feel like crying now. I thought that this farewell is going to easy, but they made it so difficult for me. Many gave me presents, hugs, and final play time before I left. I spent my final 1 hour taking pictures with them and carrying all of them. Haha. Fun yet sad. I will miss them. The memories that I have will be deep in my heart.
From the very first day I stepped into the centre till the day I leave, there was never a moment that I've felt sorry about it.
Darlings, jie jie jia yee just want to you that I love each and everyone of you so much. I will come back when I'm free. Be good to the teachers and your parents. Listen to them. Don't always make them angry ya? Study hard in school. You guys all deserve so so much more. Hold on to God's promises. I pray that oneday you all will come to know Him. Take good care of yourselves, look after each other. Promise me that you all will have a bright future. god bless you and I will miss you dearly.
Being in Lakeside for the past two months had taught me to treasure life more. To lean on God's strength. Men's strength are too little to make an impact. The children there deserve so much more and sometimes I feel like there's nothing I can offer. Nothing that I can do to take away their pain, nothing that I can do to change their lives. Only God can. All I can do is to show them love and joy everytime I'm there. Father, protect them, watch over them and bless them. Bless the teachers too for they too are holding on to you. Only you can change them God. Gosh, I so feel like crying now. I thought that this farewell is going to easy, but they made it so difficult for me. Many gave me presents, hugs, and final play time before I left. I spent my final 1 hour taking pictures with them and carrying all of them. Haha. Fun yet sad. I will miss them. The memories that I have will be deep in my heart.
From the very first day I stepped into the centre till the day I leave, there was never a moment that I've felt sorry about it.
Darlings, jie jie jia yee just want to you that I love each and everyone of you so much. I will come back when I'm free. Be good to the teachers and your parents. Listen to them. Don't always make them angry ya? Study hard in school. You guys all deserve so so much more. Hold on to God's promises. I pray that oneday you all will come to know Him. Take good care of yourselves, look after each other. Promise me that you all will have a bright future. god bless you and I will miss you dearly.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Saying goodbye, thinking, and once again, the planning begins
Jenny left us on the 12 july. We went to the airport to say our final farewell. Honestly, I did teared abit on that day. It's like...how should I say this? I've known jenny since 2005, but I must say throughout this time I feel like I don't really know her. What I know her is by outward appearance...I've never known her in my heart. That's what made me teared. I felt like I didn't make the effort to know her inside out. I once made a declaration that Iwill love everybody in the world. I feel like I didn't love jenny enough, I wish I could go out more often with her, talk to her like best friends, like sisters. Perhaps it's the age gap that kept us apart. She's 6 years older than me. Saying goodbye is tough, but deep down inside I know that this is God's plan for her. Her life is in His hands and I'm comforted by that fact. Jenny, I just want to tell you that God loves you. He has a perfect plan for you so don't worry. Spend more time with your family ya? I'm sure they've missed you so much. Don't forget what you've learnt here in Singapore, don't forget the people here. Continue to walk in His ways. Come back whenever you have the time. I'll always remember you as that sweet, caring and loving darling. Thank you for everything jie jie. I love you.
Anyway, it's already the middle of july. Time really flies. My holidays are coming to an end. Bidding is going to start real soon, well it's then back to school again. I'm rather indifferent about going back to study. I feel like that there's so many things going on in my mind all the time. Sometimes I get frustrated over them. I know that I can pour out to God (and I did), it's just that, it's stiil there, deep deep down. I keep telling myself that I have to trust Him, that I CAN trust Him. But why do I still feel like I need to rely on my own strength? You know, people used to think that I'm a strong person. That though I can appear gentle on the outside, but inside it's like a solid rock. Yes it's true to a certain extend but it only happens because God is inside me. Whenever I choose to rely on my own strength, actually I'm very weak. I can breakdown easily(some of my friends had seen that side of me). I need to have faith. I need to know that there's a solid rock inside my heart that will never fail me. Yes, I may appear funny, crazy, smiling alot. But sometimes I cry quite alot when I'm alone.
Anyway, that's all I have today. Think I'll stop here. Just want to say to my family and friends, thank you for being there. You guys cheer me up even though you may not realise it. Thank you and I love you all.
Anyway, it's already the middle of july. Time really flies. My holidays are coming to an end. Bidding is going to start real soon, well it's then back to school again. I'm rather indifferent about going back to study. I feel like that there's so many things going on in my mind all the time. Sometimes I get frustrated over them. I know that I can pour out to God (and I did), it's just that, it's stiil there, deep deep down. I keep telling myself that I have to trust Him, that I CAN trust Him. But why do I still feel like I need to rely on my own strength? You know, people used to think that I'm a strong person. That though I can appear gentle on the outside, but inside it's like a solid rock. Yes it's true to a certain extend but it only happens because God is inside me. Whenever I choose to rely on my own strength, actually I'm very weak. I can breakdown easily(some of my friends had seen that side of me). I need to have faith. I need to know that there's a solid rock inside my heart that will never fail me. Yes, I may appear funny, crazy, smiling alot. But sometimes I cry quite alot when I'm alone.
Anyway, that's all I have today. Think I'll stop here. Just want to say to my family and friends, thank you for being there. You guys cheer me up even though you may not realise it. Thank you and I love you all.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
They have gotten me thinking so much
Yes they are naughty
Yes they are hard to control
Yes they have an attention span of no longer than 30 minutes
Yes they can run 10 times longer and faster than you can
Yes they can scream louder than you
Yes they ask you alot of questions ( especially about yourself)
Yes at least 1 person have to cry a day
Yes some of them can eat more than you can
BUT...
Yes they are so adorable
Yes no matter how naughty they are, you can never get upset and angry
Yes they are still so innocent to me
Yes they still want you to play with them
Yes they still want your attention
Yes they still need your affection
Yes they have so much more to learn
Yes they will always be so much fun
Yes I still love them so so so much
Yes they will always be little darlings to me
At the end of the day, I will walk home feeling happy, light hearted and smiling. It is all worth it.
Yes they are hard to control
Yes they have an attention span of no longer than 30 minutes
Yes they can run 10 times longer and faster than you can
Yes they can scream louder than you
Yes they ask you alot of questions ( especially about yourself)
Yes at least 1 person have to cry a day
Yes some of them can eat more than you can
BUT...
Yes they are so adorable
Yes no matter how naughty they are, you can never get upset and angry
Yes they are still so innocent to me
Yes they still want you to play with them
Yes they still want your attention
Yes they still need your affection
Yes they have so much more to learn
Yes they will always be so much fun
Yes I still love them so so so much
Yes they will always be little darlings to me
At the end of the day, I will walk home feeling happy, light hearted and smiling. It is all worth it.
Monday, June 22, 2009
What if it is all just a dream? + Updates of me
I've often wondered if what I've always wanted, dreamed, hoped for are all just meaningless desires. Yes, I'm a girl who dreams alot, who wants to touch the world, but sometimes I feel like that is not for me. God did not plan it out for it to be this way. What if it is all just my own fantasy? My own selfish desires? Man! I wish I knew what's the plan for my life! Haha, ya I do get frustrated sometimes. But I want to be grateful to the fact that I have a God who cares and will lead me the right path. That's the only truth I can hold on to for now.
Okay, oh guess what. I'm so back into exercising again. Yup my love for running is back! Since now is the school holidays, I'm aiming to run at least twice a week (mon and thur). Hope it'll be successful. I remembered when I was in school, I used to love 2.4km run. Everytime there's a 2.4km run for PE I'll be very happy (ya while the rest of class will start scolding the teacher). Haha, I am the fastest girl in my class okay! haha nothing to be proud of (not like I've won $1 million or something).
Oh, the kids left only 1 week of school holidays :( yup then it's back to the normal study routine again. Well, what can I say, this is the life of a Singaporean! I wish to start school soon too. I feel like this holiday is so long. Which reminds me, I have not plan on what modules to take next semester. Sigh. You know, I've actually thought of taking another theatre module. I mean I love to act, but what stops me is the fact that I'm afraid that I cannot handle the stress. Theatre modules are usually quite heavy and having already taken 1 module in my first semester had already indicated to me that it is stressful and time consuming. Anyway, I still have to start planning soon. Psych is already enogh to kill my brain cells!
Haha. Okay that's all for this post. I'm just rambling.
"Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living"
1 LIFE. LIVE IT OR BREAK IT!
Okay, oh guess what. I'm so back into exercising again. Yup my love for running is back! Since now is the school holidays, I'm aiming to run at least twice a week (mon and thur). Hope it'll be successful. I remembered when I was in school, I used to love 2.4km run. Everytime there's a 2.4km run for PE I'll be very happy (ya while the rest of class will start scolding the teacher). Haha, I am the fastest girl in my class okay! haha nothing to be proud of (not like I've won $1 million or something).
Oh, the kids left only 1 week of school holidays :( yup then it's back to the normal study routine again. Well, what can I say, this is the life of a Singaporean! I wish to start school soon too. I feel like this holiday is so long. Which reminds me, I have not plan on what modules to take next semester. Sigh. You know, I've actually thought of taking another theatre module. I mean I love to act, but what stops me is the fact that I'm afraid that I cannot handle the stress. Theatre modules are usually quite heavy and having already taken 1 module in my first semester had already indicated to me that it is stressful and time consuming. Anyway, I still have to start planning soon. Psych is already enogh to kill my brain cells!
Haha. Okay that's all for this post. I'm just rambling.
"Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living"
1 LIFE. LIVE IT OR BREAK IT!
Friday, June 12, 2009
Living in an innocent world?
To be as shrewed as snakes but yet at the same time, we have to be as innocent as doves.
Difficult to follow, but true. It reminded me of how I live my life. Am I somebody who thinks and acts wisely or am I somebody who thinks the world is just full of flowers and everybody is sweet and nice? I guess I'll be naive if I continue to hold on to the second option. Honestly, sometimes I have no idea why God put me to be in certain places, to go through certain situations, to meet certain people...If I can see Him face to face, I would ask Him 'why?'...why did you give me these? I agree that sometimes God works in ways I can never understand, all I can do is to continue to trust Him...that's all.
Coming to a different point, haha I must say that ever since I've started volunteering in a childcare centre I've really come to love children ALOT! Honestly, being with them is like in TellyTubby Land all over again. Yes, they od have their naughty moments, but I still see them as such innocent children. their mistakes are innocent. That's why we have to teach them to do the right thing. Haha. I loved it when they grab my hand and want me to show affection to them. I love it when they climb onto my lap with a storybook and asked me to read it with them. I love it when they pull me and ask me to play with them. I love it when they call me 'Jia Yee Jie Jie' But best of all, I love it when they look me in the eye and say, "Jie Jie, I love you". It will make my heart melt. Just melt infront of them, at that spot, at that moment. Aww...so cute! Seriously, I adore every single one of them.
Yeah, I do wish at times that life would be that sweet, that simple, that innocent. But it is not. In fact it never will be. What pastor said was true. We are living in a world of wolves and the only option we can choose is either to be like one of them, or to be different and choose to reach out to them instead. I want to be a blessing to anybody that I meet. It is not easy, but it's just my personlity, the way I want to live my life. Anyway, I must say that I have no regrets volunteering in Lakeside Before and After School Day Care. I will treasure every moment of my time there. Thank you God for placing me there to serve your children.
Difficult to follow, but true. It reminded me of how I live my life. Am I somebody who thinks and acts wisely or am I somebody who thinks the world is just full of flowers and everybody is sweet and nice? I guess I'll be naive if I continue to hold on to the second option. Honestly, sometimes I have no idea why God put me to be in certain places, to go through certain situations, to meet certain people...If I can see Him face to face, I would ask Him 'why?'...why did you give me these? I agree that sometimes God works in ways I can never understand, all I can do is to continue to trust Him...that's all.
Coming to a different point, haha I must say that ever since I've started volunteering in a childcare centre I've really come to love children ALOT! Honestly, being with them is like in TellyTubby Land all over again. Yes, they od have their naughty moments, but I still see them as such innocent children. their mistakes are innocent. That's why we have to teach them to do the right thing. Haha. I loved it when they grab my hand and want me to show affection to them. I love it when they climb onto my lap with a storybook and asked me to read it with them. I love it when they pull me and ask me to play with them. I love it when they call me 'Jia Yee Jie Jie' But best of all, I love it when they look me in the eye and say, "Jie Jie, I love you". It will make my heart melt. Just melt infront of them, at that spot, at that moment. Aww...so cute! Seriously, I adore every single one of them.
Yeah, I do wish at times that life would be that sweet, that simple, that innocent. But it is not. In fact it never will be. What pastor said was true. We are living in a world of wolves and the only option we can choose is either to be like one of them, or to be different and choose to reach out to them instead. I want to be a blessing to anybody that I meet. It is not easy, but it's just my personlity, the way I want to live my life. Anyway, I must say that I have no regrets volunteering in Lakeside Before and After School Day Care. I will treasure every moment of my time there. Thank you God for placing me there to serve your children.
Friday, May 29, 2009
The end of year 1
okay, so I'm down with flu again. Got it on the first day Singapore confirmed its first H1N1 case. (Tuesday) haha don't worry, I do not have swine flu. Mine's just a common cold. I'm trying my best to recover as fast as I can because I want so much to go down to the childcare centre on monday. Hope that I will be better, really don't want to spread it to the little kids. POOR THING!
okay, what I want to say is...today's message is dedicated to a very special person. That person has answered my prayers, He never ever fail to surprise me, He remain faithful to me even though I've disobeyed Him or complained....He has taught me so many lessons and I want to say a big big thank you. You have always been with me, you have never left me, you never ever stop believeing in me and I want to never ever stop believing in you too.
Thank you for seeing me through my first year. I couldn't have done it without you.
Even if I didn't say it, I hope that you still can see it in my heart.
okay, what I want to say is...today's message is dedicated to a very special person. That person has answered my prayers, He never ever fail to surprise me, He remain faithful to me even though I've disobeyed Him or complained....He has taught me so many lessons and I want to say a big big thank you. You have always been with me, you have never left me, you never ever stop believeing in me and I want to never ever stop believing in you too.
Thank you for seeing me through my first year. I couldn't have done it without you.
Even if I didn't say it, I hope that you still can see it in my heart.
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