Yes it's exam time, but somehow I feel like my heart is not really into exams. I feel like I'm more concern with so many other issues that You had shown me. It's been a roller coaster ride and I'm still lost in thoughts. There must be a reason why...there must be something that I can do and learn from all these. I guess it's on my part to still trust You and to follow whatever You want me to do. Oh, sometimes I wish I understand why You want me to go through all these, I wish I could understand or see things the way You would see them. How or what would You do. Won't You teach me? Sometimes I feel like it's way beyond what I can handle. But I know that if it is from You, then it's through You and only through You that I can do it.
What isit that You want me to do before You'll let me go? Will You ever let me go? I wish You would tell me. But I know that most of the times You would rather show me than tell me. If I have to touch one more life here then I would do it. If it is for me to finish what I was set out to do here, then I would do it. If it is for me to learn something before going then I would do it. I would do it if You said so....but I can't do it alone. I need You. I know that You will help me. Don't give me something beyond what I can handle.
How will this situation turn out? I know that You are in control...that's the only comforting thing that I can hold on to. You love your child, You won't let any of them go. I commit this issue into Your hands.
(What will you do? Who will you listen to? What will choose in the end? )
I want to choose to listen to the Voice of Truth...Your Voice...Only Yours...
