Why isit always like that!

Father why isit always like that? Everytime I try to put you first in my life...but there will always be 1 obstacle, my parents! They will see me as being influenced by my friends...socialising so much outside home and always come home late! Why!? Even when I tell them that I want to reach out to a friend....my mum will ask me to stop it and just care for myself. You told me that as long as I have faith, all things are possible....I want to believe...I want to put my trust in You, but then why do I still find it so hard? Why do we always end up over heated conversations when I tell them I'll be late cos I have church...prayer meetings....meeting up a friend in need? It's not like I come home everyday...and to them if I come home after 10pm is late...:(

Yes, I wish that they are believers....that'll be so much eaiser....but I know that this is not His plan for me....they just don't see that way You see....I know that if I ask You, You would approve....but You gave me earthly parents and you told me to love them...to honour them....

Help me to believe in You...no matter how hard it is...help me to keep walking....keep going on...there are other people who are in a more challenging situation as compared to me....

K JIAYEE....just stop complaining now....