My church had decided that this year's Good Friday was to be celebrated as a cell-based event. I must say that it was indeed a rather different and crazy experience for me. It was a time of mad rush, getting things organised in the midst of our busy schedules. I still remeber the Christmas party that we had last December. We had alot of time to plan for that one since it was during the holidays. But for this one it was so near our tests and exams, nonetheless God works in miracle ways and beyond what I can ever imagine. All in all, it was a great experience for me. Even though on the actual day itself I was busy fetching people from khatib mrt to the funciton room(which is quite a long walk away) and missing alot of the activities, I think that was God's role for me.
I've tried to invite friends for the campus party but got rejected. I've been trying to reach out to this girl but even up till Good Friday I was not successful. I couldn't understand why until on Friday itself. God knew that I'll be really busy on that actual day. Too busy to take care of Carina, and it'll be too rush for me to meet my friends for the campus event in the evening. God knew that it was too much for me to handle and hence did not want to stress me out. At first I was quite disappointed that I didn't managed to invite anybody, but now I'm thankful. Honestly, it's not the numbers that concerns God, it is my heart, my faith. Even though I couldn't bring friends to the event, but I keep on trusting God to change my heart, my attitude. Guess what, on Easter Sunday (just yesterday) on of my girl's mum invited their neighbour to church and asked me to look after their 2 adorable daughters during service. I know that God is working in their lives and I want to thank God for Si Hui's mum for reaching out to them.
You see, I finally understand now that I don't have to rely so much on my own strength, my strength can only do this much. But God's strength is so much more. And all I have to do is ot obey Him, trust Him and He will provide the desires of my heart. I always know this in my head, but never in my heart. But I think this is the lesson that God wants to teach me on this very Good Friday and Easter Sunday.
Thank You Jesus for being so patient with me. Thank you for this beautiful lesson, thank you for your willingness to mould me. I want to understand your heart. I want to see what you see, to feel what you are feeling.
Some things have to be believed to be seen.
Won't you believe today?
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Thanksgiving
So many times, I've felt like I'm not good enough. So many times, I think I did not give you my best. So many times, I have all the wrong thoughts. So many times, I've tried to do things my own way and relied on my own strength.
But yet, all these time, you've remained faithful to me. You gave me strength when I'm weak. You gave me hope when I feel that all is hopeless. You believed in me even though I did not believe in myself. You loved me even though I've disobeyed you.
You are amazing. You are awesome.
And I want to learn to be like you more and more like you each day...If only you would help me to...
Follow your honest convictions, and stay strong
The only journey is the journey within
But yet, all these time, you've remained faithful to me. You gave me strength when I'm weak. You gave me hope when I feel that all is hopeless. You believed in me even though I did not believe in myself. You loved me even though I've disobeyed you.
You are amazing. You are awesome.
And I want to learn to be like you more and more like you each day...If only you would help me to...
Follow your honest convictions, and stay strong
The only journey is the journey within
Friday, April 3, 2009
Dying together is what that makes it all bearable
My lecturer gave a report on monday and we have to complete it by tomorrow 6pm. I tell you it's crazy especially when there are quite alot of research and analysing needed. We were working on the report the whole day today. Started at 10am with my 4 WONDERFUL and EXCELLENT groupmates and we didn't leave the school till 11pm. haha. Yes you can see now how crazy we can be. There were so many things thay we were unsure of, so many issues to clarify. We kept on trying to figure out how to analyse the graphs, how to draw the links and make good inferences. Trust me, it's tough!
We didn't eat dinner. Had some snacks, but not a full meal. Towards 10pm, we were starting to get high (guessed we were all too tired). But you know what, through it all, it was worth it. It was worth it to spend the whole day with my project groupmates as they are really the best project mates that I can ever find. We worked hard together, try to figure things out together, everybody is just so helpful to each other. Always encouraging, always so accomodating and patient. I love them. Not only did we joke alot, but we also shared with each other our own personal stories and that's what keeps us so united.
Well, I really want to thank God for this great bunch of people (the 3 of them). Because of them, we've managed to complete our project on time. It doesn't matter even if I can't go home the entire night. The time we spent together....It was all worth it. haha
lay kuan, Joey, Yiling.....THANK YOU!
Quote of the day: "A ship in harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for."
Sometimes you just need to get out of your comfort zone and find your purpose.
We didn't eat dinner. Had some snacks, but not a full meal. Towards 10pm, we were starting to get high (guessed we were all too tired). But you know what, through it all, it was worth it. It was worth it to spend the whole day with my project groupmates as they are really the best project mates that I can ever find. We worked hard together, try to figure things out together, everybody is just so helpful to each other. Always encouraging, always so accomodating and patient. I love them. Not only did we joke alot, but we also shared with each other our own personal stories and that's what keeps us so united.
Well, I really want to thank God for this great bunch of people (the 3 of them). Because of them, we've managed to complete our project on time. It doesn't matter even if I can't go home the entire night. The time we spent together....It was all worth it. haha
lay kuan, Joey, Yiling.....THANK YOU!
Quote of the day: "A ship in harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for."
Sometimes you just need to get out of your comfort zone and find your purpose.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Making the right decision
Have you ever had a feeling where you felt abit uncomfortable with a person but yet choose to accept and help the person? Well, I was in that shoes recently. Let's call this friend of mine A (just to maintain privacy). It's not that I am scared or angry with A. It's just that, even though I knew A as a friend, yet the last time we spoke, A was upset over something and I didn't exactly knew how to respond. We didn't talk alot after that for quite a while.
Well, recently A approached me and asked me if we could do an assignment together(trust me, it is really tough and I still do not have the faintest idea on how to start). At first I was a little afraid and to tell you the truth, I hesitated a bit, just abit. I was afraid that our friendship will get even more weird and I wanted to avoid it altogether. Not that we have argued or something, but just that we havn't spoken to each other for a while and all of the sudden, I was asked to work together, as a team.
Guess what, I said okay in the end. I wanted so much to put my feelings aside and just trust God that everything will turn out fine. That our discussion together will be fun, meaningful and productive. By now you guys would have guessed that our discussion was over and I'm about to tell you how it went. You are right. It was fantastic! We had such a fun time and I'm very sure both of us ended up taking our friendship one step higher :) Though the assignment was tough, yet we joked, laugh and managed to get a headstart. To me that's one of the best feeling I've ever had. I know now that sometimes it is wise to give yourself and your friend a chance to make things right again. If only you'll put your prejudice, your fears, your negative thoughts all aside and choose to take that step of faith. It's not an easy decision to make, but once you've come out victorious, you'll know that it was all worth it. But if it did not turn out the way you wanted it to be, at least you know that you've given yourself and your friend a chance and you'll definitely have no regrets.
However, I believe that if you really believe in something, then go all out to make that believe come true. It's possible so long as you have the right attitude. But that's not the hard part. The hardest part is to take that first step to make that decision to give the situation another chance. That's the crossroad and you have to decide.
You choose.
Quote of the day:
Mind is all that counts. You can be whatever you make up your mind to be.
Nothing is more difficult, and therefore more precious, than to be able to decide.
When your values are clear to you, making decisions becomes easier.
Well, recently A approached me and asked me if we could do an assignment together(trust me, it is really tough and I still do not have the faintest idea on how to start). At first I was a little afraid and to tell you the truth, I hesitated a bit, just abit. I was afraid that our friendship will get even more weird and I wanted to avoid it altogether. Not that we have argued or something, but just that we havn't spoken to each other for a while and all of the sudden, I was asked to work together, as a team.
Guess what, I said okay in the end. I wanted so much to put my feelings aside and just trust God that everything will turn out fine. That our discussion together will be fun, meaningful and productive. By now you guys would have guessed that our discussion was over and I'm about to tell you how it went. You are right. It was fantastic! We had such a fun time and I'm very sure both of us ended up taking our friendship one step higher :) Though the assignment was tough, yet we joked, laugh and managed to get a headstart. To me that's one of the best feeling I've ever had. I know now that sometimes it is wise to give yourself and your friend a chance to make things right again. If only you'll put your prejudice, your fears, your negative thoughts all aside and choose to take that step of faith. It's not an easy decision to make, but once you've come out victorious, you'll know that it was all worth it. But if it did not turn out the way you wanted it to be, at least you know that you've given yourself and your friend a chance and you'll definitely have no regrets.
However, I believe that if you really believe in something, then go all out to make that believe come true. It's possible so long as you have the right attitude. But that's not the hard part. The hardest part is to take that first step to make that decision to give the situation another chance. That's the crossroad and you have to decide.
You choose.
Quote of the day:
Mind is all that counts. You can be whatever you make up your mind to be.
Nothing is more difficult, and therefore more precious, than to be able to decide.
When your values are clear to you, making decisions becomes easier.
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