Wrapping up the experience at Lakeside...

First of all, I want to say the biggest THANK YOU to all the little ones in Lakeside Before and After School Day Care!! Thank you to all the teachers as well! These past two months had been awesome and I really considered myself very blessed to know such a place. Yes, we met the President today. Haha, the kids were super excited about it, many of them were meeting him for the first time. For me, it's just that one last day with them, so just thought of accompanying them on this trip. Yeah, it's amazing. Saying goodbye was a little difficult. I know that many of them are sad to see jeanna and myself leave. I just want to praise God for using me to be a blessing, to impart something in the kids life. I know that they will grow up to be great men and women of God. Praise God for all the teachers and Hwee Chin as well. Their unconditonal love, time and effort for the kids are fantastic! Even auntie lina derserved to be priase as well! (Man, I'm going to miss her food).

Being in Lakeside for the past two months had taught me to treasure life more. To lean on God's strength. Men's strength are too little to make an impact. The children there deserve so much more and sometimes I feel like there's nothing I can offer. Nothing that I can do to take away their pain, nothing that I can do to change their lives. Only God can. All I can do is to show them love and joy everytime I'm there. Father, protect them, watch over them and bless them. Bless the teachers too for they too are holding on to you. Only you can change them God. Gosh, I so feel like crying now. I thought that this farewell is going to easy, but they made it so difficult for me. Many gave me presents, hugs, and final play time before I left. I spent my final 1 hour taking pictures with them and carrying all of them. Haha. Fun yet sad. I will miss them. The memories that I have will be deep in my heart.

From the very first day I stepped into the centre till the day I leave, there was never a moment that I've felt sorry about it.

Darlings, jie jie jia yee just want to you that I love each and everyone of you so much. I will come back when I'm free. Be good to the teachers and your parents. Listen to them. Don't always make them angry ya? Study hard in school. You guys all deserve so so much more. Hold on to God's promises. I pray that oneday you all will come to know Him. Take good care of yourselves, look after each other. Promise me that you all will have a bright future. god bless you and I will miss you dearly.

Saying goodbye, thinking, and once again, the planning begins

Jenny left us on the 12 july. We went to the airport to say our final farewell. Honestly, I did teared abit on that day. It's like...how should I say this? I've known jenny since 2005, but I must say throughout this time I feel like I don't really know her. What I know her is by outward appearance...I've never known her in my heart. That's what made me teared. I felt like I didn't make the effort to know her inside out. I once made a declaration that Iwill love everybody in the world. I feel like I didn't love jenny enough, I wish I could go out more often with her, talk to her like best friends, like sisters. Perhaps it's the age gap that kept us apart. She's 6 years older than me. Saying goodbye is tough, but deep down inside I know that this is God's plan for her. Her life is in His hands and I'm comforted by that fact. Jenny, I just want to tell you that God loves you. He has a perfect plan for you so don't worry. Spend more time with your family ya? I'm sure they've missed you so much. Don't forget what you've learnt here in Singapore, don't forget the people here. Continue to walk in His ways. Come back whenever you have the time. I'll always remember you as that sweet, caring and loving darling. Thank you for everything jie jie. I love you.

Anyway, it's already the middle of july. Time really flies. My holidays are coming to an end. Bidding is going to start real soon, well it's then back to school again. I'm rather indifferent about going back to study. I feel like that there's so many things going on in my mind all the time. Sometimes I get frustrated over them. I know that I can pour out to God (and I did), it's just that, it's stiil there, deep deep down. I keep telling myself that I have to trust Him, that I CAN trust Him. But why do I still feel like I need to rely on my own strength? You know, people used to think that I'm a strong person. That though I can appear gentle on the outside, but inside it's like a solid rock. Yes it's true to a certain extend but it only happens because God is inside me. Whenever I choose to rely on my own strength, actually I'm very weak. I can breakdown easily(some of my friends had seen that side of me). I need to have faith. I need to know that there's a solid rock inside my heart that will never fail me. Yes, I may appear funny, crazy, smiling alot. But sometimes I cry quite alot when I'm alone.

Anyway, that's all I have today. Think I'll stop here. Just want to say to my family and friends, thank you for being there. You guys cheer me up even though you may not realise it. Thank you and I love you all.

They have gotten me thinking so much

Yes they are naughty
Yes they are hard to control
Yes they have an attention span of no longer than 30 minutes
Yes they can run 10 times longer and faster than you can
Yes they can scream louder than you
Yes they ask you alot of questions ( especially about yourself)
Yes at least 1 person have to cry a day
Yes some of them can eat more than you can

BUT...

Yes they are so adorable
Yes no matter how naughty they are, you can never get upset and angry
Yes they are still so innocent to me
Yes they still want you to play with them
Yes they still want your attention
Yes they still need your affection
Yes they have so much more to learn
Yes they will always be so much fun
Yes I still love them so so so much
Yes they will always be little darlings to me

At the end of the day, I will walk home feeling happy, light hearted and smiling. It is all worth it.