Amazing development of my future house

There you have it people. Das ist unser neues Haus. This is going to be my new house in Australia. It's not perfect yet, but it'll be soon :) Work started around late sept or early oct this year. Ich finde das Haus sehr toll! I find the house amazing. I remmeber six months ago, papa and I took a trip down to our house agent's office in perth to select the tiles, the colours, the everything. And now, I can actually see all the selections that were made falling into place. Thanks to email, we can get frequent updates and photos of our upcoming home. haha perhaps I should explain to you abit about the house. The first picture is the side view of the house. The transparent sliding door that you can see is going to be our laundary place. The washing machine and clothes rags are going to be there. Yup. I believe the windows belong to the kitchen. The bottom picture is the front view of the house. Can you see the front door? The huge hole on the left is our garage. Vater will zwei Auto haben. My father wish to have 2 cars. The huge windows on the right belongs to the master bedroom. Ya that's about it.

I can't wait to see the end product. So far it looks good. Thanks to Don Russell, everything's going according to plan. Thanks alot guys. Viel viel dank! It wouldn't be possible without you guys.

Inspiration

I've heard somewhere that where your heart is, there you'll be. You can be physically here, but if your heart is not here, then I believe that it is as though you are not here at all. Cos your heart is not here, it belongs or longs for somewhere else. When people meet, they share and bonds are created, that's where hearts born and bond. Yes, I believed that our hearts are connected to many people, your family, your friends, people who are close to you. When a person leaves, his heart gets entrusted to his friends, family...and they will carry his heart for him, as an encouragement, as an inspiration, as a remembrance. Our hearts are not exactly in our bodies, it's connected to so many other people. Guess that's what keeps people connected even when they are gone...or distance away. The sad thing is that this world is not perfect, sometimes this connection is just one sided...

People fight and protect the things that are dear to them...I believe that people do fight to protect their hearts and all the connections it has. Amazing ya? I mean have you ever thought about it...like when a friend is in need, you'll want to help him or her. Even if it is just a simple prayer for that person, you'll tend to want to do it...because your heart is connected to her's. When your grandmother needs something and you're already so tired, you'll still get up to help her.....because your heart is connected to her's. And yes, there's something else that I believe in as well...if you want to do something or if you agreed to get something done, then do it to the best of your ability, wholeheartedly. Be it in helping a friend, in your studies, in organising a party, in writing an essay, finishing a tutorial....do everything with no regrets. If someone does things halfheartedly, it'll not benefit both herself and the other party.

I heard somewhere too that people fight for 2 things...one is to protect their pride, the other is to survive in the world...but ya, it kind of boils down to 1 thing, people fight to protect their hearts. But I also believe that there are people who fight to protect what they believe in. See, it is not our background or up bringing that matters, but it's our choices that makes us who we really are.

I got alot of inspiration from anime stories, they are really not all about fighting and exaggerated effects, but their stories do have meanings and learning points. Perhaps that's what I like about them. Perhaps that's why it is part of my dream to see movies with beautiful meanings being made and share to the world...

okay, it's getting late...I'll stop here.

Gute nacht.

Another day to thank God

Thank you once again. Yes I know that you've seen me through every sem without fail, and you always suprise me time and time again (Guess that's what make my life interesting). I wouldn't ask for more, this is enough. Was talking to some of my friends, yes I believed that they'll give thanks to you too. I know that you're seeing them through their every sem all this while.

I really can never thank you enough :)

Retreat was a real treat!

Date: 9-11th Dec
Location: Jo's house at woodlands
Theme: Hobbies

Day 1 (9th dec evening) : Went to jo's house with the rest of the babes in the evening. Arrived around 8plus. haha. The house was a peaceful, simple and the best part is that you can see the sea! You can see Johor, the causeway. We did a house dedication, watched step up 2, naruto and 3 idiots. My hobby was up first, and yes i think some of you can guess, it is watching anime that's why we watched naruto together. Just a short comedy clip, about 20mins. So much laughter, joy and fun till 4am.

Day 2 (10th dec full day): Woke up around 8plus...QT....grace's came. It was monkey's hobby next. Walking! So we all went down to woodlands waterfront and walk along the sea...or isit causeway? went to a jetty, alot of people were fishing (the water's quite dirty tho). Then...played at a so-called multi-generation playground. Felt like a kid, remember the times when I played with the kids in lakeside family daycare, always so much energy. I loved the swing! It makes os feel so free. Everytime you put in effort and strength, you go higher! Like the wind is pushing you...

act lunch at the nearby hawker centre...went grocery shopping....bought a lot of ingredients for phyliicia's cooking hobby :) went back, and it was grace's hobby. Watching movie time! Inviticus...(if I'm not wrong). Great show about Nelson Mandela, South Africa and rugby. Then, around 4pm, it's phylli's cooking hobby. We all got together to help cook a meal, which will be our dinner for the day. I really loved it. Think that's my favourite hobby. I like it how everybody helped one another, be it cutting mushrooms, washing the pots, pealing the onions, garlic, or even just taking photos of us...it was all amazing. Grace decided to use the extra minced meat to make meatballs! Yummy! Yeah, I helped her fry them.

Went to TC for campus rev, came back around 11pm...bath...and time for Vic's awesome card making lesson! Yup that's one of her hobbies. It looks complicated, but if you pay attention and try, it is not that bad at all :) Jo showd us some wedding videos and went to sleep around 2am plus...I LOVE PHYLLI's BEDTIME STORY. haha

11th dec (to me it's whole day): woke up at 7plus...left the house with all our bags at around 815am....set off for Punggol Marina Country Club. Had stomachache along the way and had to drop at buangkok to go toilet. aiyo...missed the shuttle bus so we all took taxi to the club (that was quite hard...). Finally did wakeboarding. Yeah, that's jo's hobby. You can go facebook to see some of my photos. Everyone got a shot at it and I must say that we all really did enjoy ourselves. I managed to stang halfway, but ya, still not quite there yet. FUN! Chiong to bath, and took the shuttle bus to compass point. Ate lunch and rush down to tct for teensxcite and ushering. Went for adult service and finally reached back home around 10pm plus...

So tired that i slept on the floor. haha Gor did talk to me abit, but I think I only answered him abit. Pa and monkey had to drag me to bathe...finally went to bed slightlyover midnight..

I loved every moment of the retreat. Though it was tiring, but this experience really got me to bond closer with the darlings in cell. It helped me to understand them better, what they enjoy doing, what they like, how they feel, each other's strengths and weaknesses...was debating between going for this retreat of helping out as a guide in teensidol camp. I'm glad I've chosen the former. I've always tell myself that i need to spend time with my own cell and not always with the girls...it's really a balance of the two...and of course, I need to spend time with my family now...next week papa took leave, so ya. Can spend more time with them all. Ever since after exams, it has been going out with friends...

Thanks JO and LOUIS for hosting us. Your home is beautiful. It was really awesome to have a retreat there, the both of you have been a blessing to us all :)

Das ist alles leute. Viel viel dank.   

Post exams update...after a nong nong time...

Gute Abend Leute: Good evening people :) haha it has been a while since I've last posted something. Well school was crazily busy, so yeah, didn't have time to just stop and think, and write something. Though I must say that I do think a lot in my free time. Ya Ich denke sehr viel, aber ich finde es ist nicht so gut (I'm not too sure if the sentence structure is correct). Trying so hard not to loose my german, especially if I cannot take german 3 next sem. Sigh, I do think a lot but I don't think it is a good thing. I mean, sometimes, the more I think about it, the more upset I become...why make life so difficult? Just trust God and move on. Think that is a much better plan.

I was just looking at the modules that I'm considering to take next semester. Schade!! So viele 'modules' kann ich nicht nehmen. So many modules that I can't take as the timing clashes...it's sad because this is my last sem to take...okay guess I just have to make do with whatever I can now. Too bad jiayee.

Ever since the exams ended, I've been having a great time, a great time hanging out with all my friends. Es ist wirklich sehr toll :) Went out on monday with the house excos, played at mines cafe for like 5 solid hours:) tue was a date with my 3 ladies, watched 500 days of summer at joy's house, played monopoly deal and ya went to drink tea at TWG:) I've fallen in love with tea again, thanks to the 3 ladies :) Wed was my movie day. HARRY POTTER is the name of the movie. haha accompanied monkey to cut hair at 10 plus, ate lunch and went to cine to meet my lovely 2 ladies. watched harry potter, waited forthr 3rd lady to come and went off to meet jo to get amanda's living life book for her mum. Today, went to meet rachel in the morning, met amanda's mummy during lunch time, went driving and yup now at home. Tmr, going shopping mit meine oma :) with my grandmama. haha. then drving again and meeting ivana for her farewell party. She's going back croatia.

Sigh, I miss my friends and it's great that i can have time to spend with them. But sometimes I wonder if I should spend more time with myself. To just pause in the midst of everything and come to terms with just me..I'm not emo, haha don't get me wrong, it's just that...I don't how to say. Naja, das ist okay. Ich glaube, manchmal ich will allein.

Anyways, it's been an awesome week! Eine tolle Woche!! Thank you everybody for making this week so fun. I love you all.

PS: counting down the days to christmas, then after that, counting down to 2011...the year where everything I ever knew is going to change...

Das ist alles für heute. Auf Wiedersehen! 

Waseda Shibuya Senior High Awesome Funfair!

                                              

Arrived around 2 plus in the afternoon, all the activities, games, fun had already started long ago, since 930am. But yet, their energy never dies...they still smile at you, invite with the most enthusiastic way :) haha monkey and I played hmmm number 6(roku), which I believe it's a maze game. haha Had to go around trying to earn as much money $$$ as possible. haha we decided to save money and choose to go study in Iraq instead USA...it was so fun. One of the satation i/c started talking to me in Japanese, oh but I don't understand, he realised in the end and used English after that. Trust me, their English is really not bad :)Thought that all the students there were so creative...can tell that they've put in alot of effort in pulling this whole programme together. By the way, I'm so not shy la...was very high :) really enjoyed myself! We went to vote, haha of course vote for...hmmm..number 6!! haaha but wasn't lucky in the lucky draw. But it's okay. We walked around the campus after that...they really have awesome facilities. You can go to my facebook to see more pictures. We took pictures of their caligraphy, artwork and many more! Yulian joined us after that, played one more station game called Ninja Warrior! yay! It was so cool! First time that I threw a Shuriken:) no correction, I threw 4 Shurikens :) haha oh yes, saw many good-looking guys. I was telling my monkey that some sof them are just born perfect to me. So beautifual features and they're always so polite :) haha at the very end we went around taking pictures with a few of the students :) :) haha yulian, monkey and I played with the posters too! trying to pose like them.

Thanks so much Waseda Shibuya Seniour High :) yesterday was like the most fun day I ever had this year...somehow it seems so surreal! Like in fairytale land. Would love to meet all of you oneday...If God will provide a way...hahaa. Wish I could understand Japanese, wish I could speak Japanese too.

ありがとうございます!

Have a great semester ahead!

がんばって

German Post attempt 1

Hallo alles! Wie geht's?
Ich habe viele Hausaufgaben und keine Zeit schlafen ;( Warum? Weil bin ich an der Universitat NUS. Das ist spass, aber jeden Tag die Lehrer und Lehrerin unterreicht viel schnell. Jetzt bin ich in dritten Jahr und studiere Psychologie :) und dir? Was studierst du?

Okay, meinen Freuden sind Freundlich...jeden Tag sind wir zusammen ins Kantine essen. .......
Abendessens esse ich zu Haus.


Okay, das ist alles fur Heute!
Tschuss!! 

Why isit always like that!

Father why isit always like that? Everytime I try to put you first in my life...but there will always be 1 obstacle, my parents! They will see me as being influenced by my friends...socialising so much outside home and always come home late! Why!? Even when I tell them that I want to reach out to a friend....my mum will ask me to stop it and just care for myself. You told me that as long as I have faith, all things are possible....I want to believe...I want to put my trust in You, but then why do I still find it so hard? Why do we always end up over heated conversations when I tell them I'll be late cos I have church...prayer meetings....meeting up a friend in need? It's not like I come home everyday...and to them if I come home after 10pm is late...:(

Yes, I wish that they are believers....that'll be so much eaiser....but I know that this is not His plan for me....they just don't see that way You see....I know that if I ask You, You would approve....but You gave me earthly parents and you told me to love them...to honour them....

Help me to believe in You...no matter how hard it is...help me to keep walking....keep going on...there are other people who are in a more challenging situation as compared to me....

K JIAYEE....just stop complaining now....

FAITH + LOVE

I read somewhere that "Faith makes all things possible....Love makes all things easy." I thought that this is totally true...Faith isn't faith until it is all that you're holding onto...but it is because you still choose to hold on to it, you still choose to believe in it...that gives u a ray of hope that it is possible. Thus faith makes all things possible, even though you can't see it, but as long you can feel it, as long as you can see it in your heart...that makes it possible.

Faith is believeing in things when common sense says not to. It is the knowledge of the heart, not of the brain....

Even if your brain says it is stupid, it is so hard...people will think that you're crazy...you're not going to make it....but if your heart choose to disregard all these and instead choose to hold onto faith, then you will see the opposite of all these comments.

But I feel it is that it is important that faith is accompanied by love. You need to love others and not just get too caught up with what you want to attain. Beacuse the things that we want to attain will afect people...don't be too caught up with your own targets....but see people as humans with feelings, with hearts....with  pains, joy, anger etc...People are not mere objects...don't let your faith just be things to attain...to achieve...goals....but do achieve them with a heart of love...

That's why faith and love need to go together. That's when you can fufill and experience your purpose. That's when you'll see His dreams, your dreams for Him, and yet to still be a blessing to the people around you.

6 weeks of FAITH + LOVE...soon it will be a  lifestyle...I this want to be my lifestyle.

Thank you so much AP!

Today was my last day at AP. Spent about 2 months there. It had been as awesome experience, really learnt alot from the therapists. haha had like a mini celebration with the children. Ate pizza hut...blew balloons...played wii. It was fun, but the sad part is that I'll miss all of them. They are so special, so innocent, ya afterall they're God's creation and I know He loves them alot.

Gave each of them a farewell present, a cereal box...gave out my appreaciation letters to the therapists...that's about it. 2 months just fly like that. I must say that my interest in this area of Psychology has increased. I've always loved working with children, just never considered dealing with children with special needs until now. I just want to be a blessing to them and to help them understand our world better.

Thank you so much for making this school holidays of mine so meaningful...I will miss you all but I know that you all are in good hands...continue to grow big and strong...

PS: I gave my first kiss away today...to a 2 year old boy. HAHA anyway he did kiss me back too!

Goodbye to Michelle...5 months till we meet again my dear sister

Okay let me tell you about my day.

Woke up at 1030am....took a shower...ate breakfast....did QT...last min studying for my Basic Driving Evaluation...left the house at 115pm...went to BBDC...passed the test...went to meet Zah at West Coast Market at 330pm...ate lunch...bought bubble tea...went back to her condo and chill at her clubhouse...talk like mad...2 young japanese boys playing cards opposite our table...saw a really cute baby...the shy boy...the friendly mother...took her condo shuttle bus to clementi at 705pm...went to changi airport...

Yup today was the day michelle left for Australia...Newcastle. She's going there to complete her final year of university. I am happy for her, knowing and trusting that it is God's plan. I believe that michelle will settle down well and have an awesome time in Aussie. I want to thank God for her lovely parents..her mom...she's really blessed with a fantastic family(just like me :)). Yup she went in at about 1015pm...it was painful for her...gave her a last hug...and ya..she went off.

She should be sleeping on her plane now...take care michelle...all the best for your studies...we'll meet again this november...our heavenly Father is going with you, so don't worry.

God bless and I love ya :)

Goodbye Gerald...

IZZAH           JONA            JEANNA           ZOE             GERALD


These 5 names...since 17 years old I've known them. Being in house exco...being OGLs....being always there for one another....5 people who went through thick and thin with me. Today, we said goodbye to one. Gerald left us for Australia today at 1135pm. Jona, Izzah and I went to Tampines to finish up the scrapbook for him in the afternoon. Somehow I've never imagined this day would come where we would see 1 of us leave...yup gerald is going to do his degree in Melbourne....three years is quite a long time. As the clock ticked closer and closer to evening...I can't believed that I was actually a little excited....excited yet upset...

When we finally saw him in T3...somehow all of us were filled with smiles again...smiles for 1 last time before saying goodbye. So many of his friends came to say their final farewell too...gerald you're really lucky that you have so many people who cares for you...especially Izzah. Everything went quite okay...gerald was full of smiles as usual...saying last minute goodbyes to everybody...zah got a little emotional after a while...when it was around 1040pm...he had to walk into the departure gate...didn't feel like crying then...he hugged everybody 1 last time...then as he walked through the custom etc...that was when I wanted to cry...I wanted to cry as I know that we will be seeing him lesser from today onwards...for me...I know that gerald is coming back to Singapore oneday....but I won't...I'll go there forever and will not get to spend so much time with these 5 people anymore...

All the arguements we had when plainning the amazing race back in 2007....all the laughter we had in school...going to school together in the morning...attending meetings together....sports day.....having to work with Student Counsil sometimes....being orientation group leaders together...seeing each other through NS...Uni...all these memories will be kept deep down in my heart...still remember that there was a time when I was actually angry with gerald...waaa...that was so long ago...it was due to having different views about the amazing race planning...the 6 of us kind of gotten into a disagreement over it...but the most beautiful thing was that we still went out for dinner after that...we still love each other for who we are....and the amazing race turned out to be a huge success :) Guess this is life...people come and go...nothing is permanent...but I don't want to let time fly like that..I want to treasure every moment with everybody who are dear to me...we'll see him again end of this year...yup.

Goodbye gerald...you've only left us for awhile...we'll meet up again...take good good care in australia...we'll be at the extreme ends of aussie next year...do still keep in touch with your family...esp with Izzah...she'll miss you like crazy...all the best in your studies...settle down well in your new school, new home and make new friends. The 5 of us back in Singapore will miss you alot....thanks for always bringing so much joy to us...

2006-2007 The 6 friends were in PJC
2008-2009 Gerald/Jona - NS
2008- Jeanna/Zoe/Zah/JY - NUS

                          2010        

GERALD LEONG - Monash(Melbourne)

JONA - NUS(Engin)
IZZAH - NUS (Arts)
JEANNA - NUS (SDE)
ZOE - NUS( Science)
JIAYEE- NUS (Arts)

My Winter Sonata At Perth

Hey everybody, just gotten back from Perth Australia yesterday with my dad, so I'm here to post our happenings and updates about our house. It was just a father-daughter trip( first time travelling overseas just with my dad) And yes, It was my first time experiencing winter in Aussie, but I must say that the weather is beautiful and it really wasn't very cold, except at night. Temperature rages about 17-23 degrees. The amount of daylight is alot lesser as compared to during the summer. The sun will only fully rise at about 8am and it sets at about 530pm. By 6pm the sky is completely dark, as dark as 9pm in Singapore. Yup, the people there majority wore winter clothing esp when walking around the streets. So here's how the 6 days has been for both my dad and I.

DAY 1 - Left our house at 630am, took a cab to terminal 1. Flew off to australia at 905am. Touched down at 210pm at Perth International Airport. Took a shuttle bus from airport ro our hotel. By the time we got there, it was already 4 plus in the afternoon. Shops usually closed by 6pm, so papa and I quickly checked in and went out to buy some food in the nearby supermarket. By 5 plus, the sun was already setting, we didn't walk around much...just went back to hotel. Watched world cup on the TV, think it was south korea and somebody...haha. Went to bed around 11 plus pm.

DAY 2 - woke up at 9am. Ate breakfast and we set off to find our land and the area where our future house is gonna be. Took a train from perth city to clarkson, the ride is about half an hour. From clarkson, took a bus to Butler. Butler is a suburb north of perth city. And yes, we walk like crazy to find our land, eastwall parkway! I thought it was near the ocean, it was, but not that near where you can see it. It is quite a distance still. After that we walked to Brighton estate, beautiful park. I love the pond, the garden, the people. Ate our lunch at 3 plus pm. It was an awesome lunch at an awesome restaurant. Haha took the bus back to clarkson station at about 530pm. (While waiting for the bus, I fed the ducks in the pond...hehe). Reached back perth city at about 7plus pm. If I'm not wrong, we went to buy some food from woolsworth. That's it, our day kind of end like that, of course we went back to watch world cup. Went to bed at 1am.

DAY 3 - woke up close to 10am. haha set off to glendalough station. We went there as we had an appointment with our house agent, Don Russell. Spent about 3 hours plus there choosing our tiles, house colour, bathroom, carpets, garage etc. So many choices, so many selections, but it was very fun. All thanks to Jan who made the process so meaningful and fun for us. She offered alot of advise, and yes she herself is awesome too. We broke their record for choosing everything in 3 hours plus. Most people need about 6-7 hours. We went back to perth city and went shopping, bought plenty of food stuff. That's it for day 3.

DAY 4 - haha same as usual, woke up to close 10am. Took a walk to swan bell. Papa saw the cruise promo and thought of trying out the river cruise down sream and up stream as well. so we hopped on the ferry at 12 noon. Bought a few sandwiches and orange juice before getting on. The cruise is lovely. The captain told alot of stories about the history of certian buildings along the swan river ( I like esp the contravercies). We headed down river towards Frementle first. Couldn't go more than that there after as we would hit Indian Ocean, so we went back and headed up river. The waters up stream is alot calmer. And there was a crazily rich Singaporean who bought a huge mansion along the swan river! By the time the river cruise ended, it was 430pm. I was gald we decided to take the cruise as that day was a little rainy, it would have been difiicult to walk. Went to eat dinner at 5 plus pm at hay street shopping district. I ate thai mee goreng, yummy. Day 4 was alot colder than the other days, guess it was because it was raining the whole day. We went back to hotel to change to thicker clothing after dinner and set off again to shop for food! Came back about 8 plus pm, watched world cup and yeah, went to zzzzz.

DAY 5 - Went to UWA today. There were having exams, saw alot of students studying around campus. I went to the administration office to enquire about the application for monkey and myself for wanting to do honours there next year. Took a few picutres. Then, we set off to Kings Park, the biggest park in Perth. We walked like crazy. Went to Synergy Park first, then to the Botanical Gardens. Took many pretty pictures and we walk and walk and walk. I love the view on Mt Eliza where we could see the Perth Skyscrapers and the Sea! There were alot of people at the park, relaxing, cycling, picnic etc. It really is a very beautiful park. I kind of knew that this is our last day to really explore Perth before heading back, so we walked alot. From UWA, we walked throught Kings Park and all the way back to Perth city. It took us around 3 hours. But it was worth it. Papa decided to reward ourselves and thus went we went to eat KFC.

DAY 6 - woke up at 830am. The sun has just risen(yeah i slept beside the window in our hotel). Papa wasn't in, he went out to walk i think. I went to wash up and ya did some packing. Papa came back, we ate breakfast and checked out our hotel at 10am. Went to put our baggage down at the lobby and yup went to walk around the park that's near our hotel. We couldn't walk much. Went to buy orange juice, and went back to wait for our shuttle bus to fetch us back to the international airport. Our flight took off at 340pm. Touched down at Singapore at 9pm. It was quite a rough flight back to Singapore. Somebody threw up in the toilet and the cabin crew made an announcement if there's any doctors on board as someone had heart troubles. I was a little afraid when the plane took off as I could smell leaking fuel, or was it gas. But nothing happened, so okay.

I chatted with the woman beside me on our way back. She was from Perth, but came to live in Singapore in the 1960s ( boy, she really saw Singapore change!). Yeah, she was saying how much she loved Singapore and ya, she didn't really like Australia. I was thinking, man I'm like the complete opposite from her! Her son is an Architecture, he is one of the designers of our circle line.

All in all, I really did enjoy myself, and I'm sure my papa did too. Australia has always been so hospitable to us. This trip wasn't meant to be a holiday, we had a mission to accomplish. But somehow, I did enjoy myself. Oh man, think I've put on some weight, their food portions are huge! haha but yes we walked alot too. And the weather is beautiful! So yup that's all from me.

That's all for my winter sonata in Perth!     

Thanksgiving!

Afterall that has happened, all I can say is to look back and just give thanks to God.
God deserves all praise and honour and glory...I know that He is doing something great and big in our midst.
Thank you Father!

Jia Yee...the girl who thinks alot...

Hey everybody....sorry, I turn to my blog as recently there's just so many things going through my head. Yes, my father in heaven understands, but I thought it would be better too if I write them down here and just try to express my thoughts and feelings out. Hopfully I'll feel better there after. Sigh, exams are over, but yet, it did not end it the way I've wanted it...One of my friend had a brain tumour...went throught 3 operations...I've visited her twice in the hospital. So far, I heard that she's recovering well. Really thank God for the miracle that He's shown towards her and her family.

I've (as usual) started thinking about Australia again...yeah...papa and mummy are in the middle of getting the house design plan out...the rooms....the kitchen....the tiles...the outside....so many opinions, so many visits to our property agent. Everytime they come back, there'll be new plans, updates....things are slowly taking shape. I've emailed UWA regarding my postgraduate studies after my thrid year...still waiting for them to reply...have been praying about it.

Papa and I will take a short trip down to Perth next month to check out our house area (Brighton, Butler). We're suppose to take a look around the area, the shopping malls, the buses, the neighbourhood etc. Papa wants me to stop by UWA to enquire more about monkey's application next year....I'm eyeing on a particular church already...first time experiencing winter in Australia...

Trying to understand other people's pain, emotions... life...etc...Heard another news about one of my darlings' mum....All I can do is pray and believe God in everything, that He is in control...

Hoping to spend my vacation volunteering in an Autistic Agency called Autism Partnership....really want to gain more experience working with children...also to spend a meaningful summer holiday...

Jo's wedding! Awesome and exciting, so looking forward to the big day! Want to help up (esp my given task) to the best of my ability to make this day an extra special one for Jo and Louis!

Mummy wants me to learn driving....should I...I understand her point of view...I can't always depend on my papa, he's getting older, and no one else could drive...isit it high time that one of us learn too?

I've also been thinking alot lately about how I think, my thoughts about life, people, the way I make decisions, the way I allow my emotions to take over me...why do I think like that...why do I feel like that? I've always been a people's person, but I've never realised it to such an extent until recently...Am I getting too caught up with emotions in general...my mummy always says that I cannot allow myself to be consumed by my own emotions, especially if I want to help others...if I'm too caught up with my emotions then it'll be a loose-loose situation....

Jia Yee has changed throughout the years....I used to be a rather quiet girl....isit? But now I'm more open....isit? Why am I feeling this way...why am I thinking of so many things, I know that all I can do is to surrender everything to God, I know that He is in control, He knows best, He understands best...He sees the situations better than I do...but why do I keep thinking about them...

I asked my papa the same question..."Papa, do you think that I think alot?".....His answer was "Yes, sometimes..."....I believe that he understands what I'm going through...but not totally I guess....only my Heavenly father knows....it's hard to talk about everything to a particular person...that's why I talk to God...but then why do I still feel of bottled up with emotions? It's like, for this situation, I should feel happy....yet for another situation I should feel worried and concern...and yet another situaiotn I should feel upset...

Okay Ho Jia Yee...stop it....you know that you have to surrender everything to God...if you don't, then it's going to be hard for God to use you, you'll just be too caught up with yourself...your conscious....Father I'm sorry that I feel think way...You understand me better than I myself do...I don't know why I'm going through all these...but I know that You are sovereign at all times...thank you for everything, for Your comfort, for Your strength...I pray that You'll bless all the people around me whom You love, whom I love too Father...protect them, heal their pain, bless them, overflow their cup, bring people to them who will love them and be an encouragement to them.

Amen

Sorry for rambling so much...I'll stop this right here.

MY DREAMS for GOD!

Yesterday during cell, we talked about our dreams, what is it that we want to achieve...
I was nervous, haha that's because I've always been so shy to tell others what I my aspirations are. But today, as I was preparing cell for my darlings girls tomorrow, I bummed into this website written by a woman who is strong in faith, and she was talking about dreaming for God. She said that we should always write down our dreams, be specific, thank god for them everyday, pray about them and believe that they will come to pass.
Yup so I'm going to do this now...I'm going to write them down....Thank you so much God for teaching me how to trust in you, how to grow in you, how to believe in you...

I have 3 dreams, I realised that they are really alot. haha

1st - Some of you know that I'm currently majoring in Psychology in university, yes, I love people and I've always loved to help people. I want to understand them, to help them, to bless them, to encourage them. My heart goes out particularly to children, those little children who come from broken homes, disadvantaged homes...I believe that they need a touch from God and I want to be that vessel that will bring them to God. So yes, I want to be involved in a children's centre, a children's home, an organisation or something like that to bring hope to them, to let them know that there is a hope...that they can still achieve their fullest potential that God has for them...I want to change poeple's lives...

2nd - haha think some of you know about this too.....I love music! This dream came to me recently, and that is I want to touch others with music....with songs that speak of God's faithfulness, of the hope that we have...that the world is so broken without God, that things of the world can't satisfy us. One singer whom I really admire is Britt Nicole :) Her songs really build me up in my down moments and yes I believe that God has used her songs to touch others. But the thing is I'm not a good songwriter, I mean I've never written a song before. I want to grow in this area though...I want to bring songs, words that are from God to minister to people. And yes, I'm not sure if I'm a good singer too. haha (I worry too much!) I mean I was from choir for my first 3 months in JC (like Senior High) but, I quit after that as I realised that I didn't like that kind of singing. Recently I've been looking into christians bands and singers in Western Australia (Perth)...yes I believe God is using Australia to reach out to the masses! Haha think some of you already know, Perth is going to be my future home. My prayer is that God will use my in Perth to reach out to His people there with songs.

3rd - Last aspiration. Some of you know that I've taken a couple of theatre modules in NUS too. Want to know why? Coz one of my dream is to touch people through movies. For me, I didn't like how the movies/entertainment industry has turned into a world full of hurts, things/scenes that displeases the Lord etc...I've always want to do movies that will spread God's love, that will touch lives through the stories...I want people to walk out of the cinema changed, in their hearts, spirit, way of looking at life etc...
Why reach out through movies? Cos everybody love to watch movies! That's how you can reach out to the masses. That's how to can touch poeple on a large scale.

Are these dreams impossible? NO! I'm learning to trust God, to believe that they will come true. How? I don't know. But I'm willing to learn. Father, plan this path out for me. You will be my director, You will be my guide, my teacher. And Father, should I ever loose sight of doing your will, pull me back. You taught me to dream big, I want to dream big for You...I know that Your heart is for the lost out there....I want to have the same heart as Yours.

Thank You for always moulding me. Thank You for finding me, for Your love, faithfulness, Your promises...Help me to be more and more like You, each day.
Amen. 

You can Walk on the water too

Are we going to play safe.....again?
Yes, it is always nice to be in our own comfort zones...but...

Am I going to hold back what He wanted me to do?
So often I tell myself that it is better to loose my pride than to loose that chance to bring someone closer to Him.
So what am I waiting for? Why isit so hard to talk about this issue to people?
Take that first step. You know that it is always He who is in control, so why are you still holding back?

I tell myself that I want to love the world just like the way He has loved me. He loves the world, and if I say that I love Him, then that means I must love what He has created which is the world.

I don't want to follow the world. The world says that I'm not good enough, I'll say 'no'. He is with me and I can do all things in Him.

I want to love people....teach me how to love people. Every individual is created by You.
You love him, her, he, she, they....You love them, so I want to love them too. Every individual is so precious to You, so I must treasure people...coz they are from You. You think of them everyday.....You want to fellowship with them everyday...so I want to do that too...

You didn't give up on me, so I don't want to give up too.

I don't want to let my insercuritues alter me. I don't to always think about ME. I don't want to be afraid to stand out, even if the whole world laughs at me, I know that He won't laugh at me. Even if the whole world does not believe me, I know that He believes in me. Even if nobody will do it, I want to be the one who stills hold on and do it. Even if it is very difficult, I don't want to give up.

I know that I am made for more.
So what am I waiting for?
Don't be afraid....

Faith is all it takes to walk on water....Your faith is all it takes for you to walk on water.....too.

The Wanting to Build People up...

This post goes out to 3 special people. These 3 are my close friends whom I really treasure alot. Throughout this week, these 3 people had shared with me part of their lives, their struggles, their worries and concerns....You know I went back home and ask myself....Jia Yee, is there anyway that you can do to build these 3 precious ppl up, is there anything that you can do to encourage them, to tell them not to give up...to press on...It's been hard to tell them face to face, somehow my thoughts and words are just not organised...so if anyone of you 3 are reading this post, these are my words to you...

To person 1- understand that this week has been a crazy one for you. Alot of datelines are coming up and I know that the workload just keeps piling. Rmb when you shared with me that even though you feel like you've put in so much effort, somehow the results just doesn't show. Understand that sometimes we just don't see the results and we feel like quiting, feel like giving up. My encouragement to you is to hang in there. I know that it can be tiring, n sometimes things just get so tough and pointless, but you know what, I believe that oneday your effort will pay off. God is not so mean to make you work like crazy and yet doesn't reward you. I'm sure that if you keep trying, keep believing, you'll soon see the meaning of doing them all. It is through these difficult times that we grow, that we become discipline, that we become stronger....

To person 2 - I thank god that i get to understand you more after this week. You shared with me about how you feel that your dream to be a doctor is destroyed after entering into fass. My encouragement to you is that God has a perfect plan for you. Yes there will always be things that we will never get to understand, that we don't get to see the reason why all these things are happening, but you know what, my encouragement to you is not to give up believing that there is something out there for you to discover. Maybe god didn't want to you to become a doctor cos it'll be too much for what you can handle, maybe he wants to protect you from something that you may not be able to see it now. God broke my pride when i didn't get to see my name up there on the screen, scoring AABB for A levels. And i thank god for doing that, if not, i'll become arrogant, if not, my heart will harden. But you know what, he didn't short change me, he still brought me to where i wanted...I'm sure he's doing a similar work in your life too. He may hv broken your heart to mould you in something better. But he will never short change you...that's what i believe, you may not be able to see it now, but im sure oneday you'll understand...My prayer is that you'll find your place in fass, you'll find meaning and purpose in what you're doing soon. Maybe this is the best for you. Keep holding on.

To person 3- First and foremost, i want to thank god for you. Everythime i talk to you, i get to understand you a little better. Life is not just about getting into a university, it is so much more than that. Yes, getting into a uni is important, but it is not everything. I know of people who didn't make it into uni but are doing well in life now. Understand that sometimes life seems unfair and that there are so many things that happen that we don't understand. The more we think about it, the more confuse we become, the more frustrated we become. That's why i choose not to think so much, but to treasure what i have, what i can do at this moment and to pick myself up again to see what's the next best option in my life. I pray that your mom will come to understand you better, to understand her son's heart, emotions, thoughts...understand that being a teacher may not be what you want...i hope that god will provide you an opportunity for you to talk to your mom, to share with her how you really feel deep down inside....and yes, sometimes we feel that our position in life is so limited, so constraint and we don't have the resources to venture out into another world to persue what we want. i totally understand that, but you know what, my encouragement to you is to not give up believeing in what you can do in singapore. Don't let all these pull you down, try to see a positive light somewhere, try to see things in another perspective, and I'm sure oneday you'll find something where you'll find joy, meaning and purpose in doing it. Take time to find what you like that is reasonable and worth persuing. Yes not everybody end up doing what they like, but my encouragement to you is to take a chance no matter what. Choose to give yourself that chance, you'll never know until you try....yup i do hope too that we'll still remain in contact 10 years from now...if my blog is an inspiration to you, then i will never stop blogging, i will try to encourage you with my life....it's not perfect, but if it can shine a light in your heart that can cause you to see things in a different way, then i will continue blogging for you...life is so much more beautiful if we choose to see the brighter side of the grass instead of always focusing on the darker side...i believe that what ever you're going through now, they'll make you a stronger person, they'll make you into a better person...hang on...don't give up in yourself...don't ever give in to that thought...

Thanksgiving time!

Praise God! I'm finally going to be baptised! My parents finally approved. It's going to be a new beginning!

PERTH Western Australia (6th-11th Jan)

Okay darlings, here's my post on our Perth Trip :)

DAY 1 - Arrived Perth International Airport at around 615am. Checked in hotel (everyone feeling tired). Ibis hotel is beautiful, I really love it! Monkey and I shared a room. We all went to snooze for a while. haha and yes, gor and I did our bidding in the hotel. In the evening we did went out abit. We went to swanbell near swan river. Again another a beautiful sight. Couldn't take pictures though as our camera was out of batt and papa forgot to take out the extras. Yup. We ate Macs for dinner.

DAY 2 - Took a bus to University of Western Australia! Still remember the bus number, 102! It wasn't a long ride, about 20mins. UWA is so cool! It look ancient, old but so pretty. The place is spacious and the architecture is just simply awesome. The place is rather quiet as they are having holidays still. Their semester will open on Feb if I'm not wrong. Yea, we wondered around and took alot of pictures :) haha monkey even took a picture of the toilet. We did see some lecturers (if I'm not wrong) walking around. Gor and I thn went in the visitors' office to ask for the prospectives of UWA (ya monkey will most prob be studying there next year). Our day kind of end like this. We took a bus back ibis hotel after that.

DAY 3 - Happening day. We took a train to Fremantle. I love the place. It's like a port and there were alot of ships and boats parked there. We had our lunch there (I ate fish n chips). I LOVE THE SEA! Oh, there were alot of seagulls there too, took many pictures of them too. By the time we went to perth city, it was already in the evening. Papa didn't want to waste the train ticket, hence, mummy, papa, monkey and I took another train to Armadale, a suburb. It was quiet and peaceful, it's like a housing estate. We went shopping for a while in Woolworths and of course ate dinner at Hanz Asian Cuisine only. Yummy, I ate laksa. We wanted to take the train back at around 745pm, but there were no more trains by that time. So we took the bus (907) all the way back to Perth city. It was a long ride, my butt was seriously aching. There were alot of people on the bus with us. haha saw a drunkard man, some bunch of youngsters ( I believe they are Americans due to their accent). We got back at about 9 plus at night. all of us were tired. Went to shower and slept like a pig....

DAY 4 - Today was search for a house day. K, we took a train and bus to this place called Joonjalup, somewhere in the north. haha it is a remote area far away from Perth city. Know why? Coz they have alot of show houses there! They are all so beautiful! The houses there are not only big...like super big...but also cheap. Papa did talk to some property agents (boy they are all so friendly and helpful) to check the price of settling down there. Joonjalup is near the sea, so ya, it is quite ex as compared to Armadale. We waited rather long for the bus to take us back to Joondalup train station. I got bored and started taking pictures of myself.. hhahaa. When we've arrived at the train station, we went shopping in the shopping centre just beside the shopping centre. Bought some stuff for my friends back in Singapore. We went back to Perth city after that. End of day 4.

DAY 5 - Again went on a train ride to another suburb called Mandurah. It's down south again (same as Fremantle and Armadale). Again beautiful place. Took alot of pretty pictures at by the jetty. There were alot of shops along the walkways, sellings necklaces, pearls, paintings etc...simply beautiful. We ate lunch there, something like a Malaysian Restaurant. Man I miss rice when I was in Perth. It was yummy. Took a bus back to Mandurah train station and all the way back to our hotel in Perth city. We went shopping at Murray Mall Street. ahah bought bags :) In the evening I went out with Papa to buy back dinner for everyone. Bought a few stuff from the sovenir stall.

DAY 6 - Not much that we could do. Ate breakfast then went to do last min shopping. Got another bag, a book and lots of earrings etc at diva! We went back to the hotel after that to wait for our shuttle bus to take us to Perth International Airport. yup

Arrived at Singapore at 905pm. Came home nearly 10pm. Super tired. Tomorrow's another day. School has already started....oh man. okay. haha all in all I love it! I love Australia. The people there are all so hospitable and kind and friendly and sweet... haha I can go on and on...I like it when you walked into a stall and they go "Hello, how are you?", I mean, almost nobdy in Singapore does that. I l oved it when they called you "Dear, sweety, love..." it's so sweet. They have been very kind to my family for the passed 1 week. Really made me realised how much Singaporeans are lacking man. anyway, that's all from me. I got to go sleep now. Tomorrow's another day.

Thank You Perth, Thank You Australia. You have been a blessing for me and my family :)

First post of 2010

First of all, let me wish everyone a HAPPY & BLESSED NEW YEAR! It's finally 2010, wow can't believe it. 2009 has alot of ups and downs but I just want to thank God for always being there for me, for seeing me through. Last semester was 1 of the toughest for me, really hope that next sem (which will begin in about 1 week's time) will be alot better. Seriously, I need to manage my time properly.

Honestly, I can't wait for this year to start. I know that it is going to be exciting and there's so much to expect and to look forward to. I must be ready and strong. I know that my heavenly Father is preparing me for greater things and I want to experience them to the fullest, I believe that He has been training me up for the years ahead. Yup. Hope that I can go on an overseas mission trip. I'm sure there'll be so much to learn and experience. The last time I've been on one was like 2005(freaking long ago!)

Oh yes, I'm so counting down to 5th Jan, because that's the day my family will fly to Perth. It's my third time going to Australia(beautiful country) but my first time to Perth. Somehow flying there is a totally different feeling from all the other trips. Guess some of you darls already know the reason.

Well, Vic left for USA 2 days ago. Hope everything is going well for her. It's going to be an experience of a life time. So excited for her. 6 months is quite a long time to me.

Anyway, that's all I have for you guys today. Have a great 2010 peeps!